Dear Adam Young,

Hi, my name is louisa. I'm in between graduating high school and going to college.

I want you to know, that every blog you've posted since "You Had Me At Hello" even through the latest update about making new music, they all entirely fit what is going on in my life and how I've been feeling. Like, not only as a collective feeling, but also as you posted a new blog, that was where I was in my life! Which is exciting to think about, because it means I'm not alone. It gives me hope :)

With the latest scoop on new music. I know EXACTLY what you mean about hearing it in your head, and wanting to let people hear it that way, but instead, picking apart the sound and creating it first. I feel like I'm in the same spot, writing music more steadily now and hearing it in my head, but for me I don't have analog equipment, so I do everything with VSTs on my dell laptop. After all the time I put onto it, I start to get lonely. Does it ever bother you that the time it takes to create music is spent without much interaction with the rest of the world? I work for my parents, who own a shipping franchise, and I would rather spend that time doing something I could pour my heart and soul into like making music -- even though I know what I do for my job is important, and people need to get their shipments on time and undamaged.
Part of me feels like I can't meet my social needs if I'm working and doing music, but if I choose to fill those needs, music has to drop out of the picture (it's happened, and I hate the end result). And at the moment Im definitely not in the position to quit my job. Groceries are important, you know?

How did you create music when you had a job at UPS? Did you hang out with your friends often? Was it sometimes annoying to work on a song for so long, but you knew it wouldn't get done well if you didn't finish? When did you finally quit your job? How long were you playing local shows for? I want to know your story,
because I feel like I aready know a lot of you from your songs (you do a good job with putting your raw self out there ;) ). So what is your story?

Louisa

class

so i think i've got separation anxiety for my summer classes. Mainly because i love my Book of Mormon class and the University Chorale. tomorrow is the last day for both and i cannot concentrate on my paper at ALL.

Also, you know those days where you pray for something really really hard and you think it's exactly what you need, but the Lord doesn't think so and He makes sure you go without it?

This is one of those days.

Guhhhhhhhhhh

Shedding Tears

i haven't really cried since 8th grade. i balled that november, it was terrible. since then, i haven't cried much. like, i'll tear up, but few tears would fall. for me it was frustrating.

a lot has happened leading up to this, like letting go, the good kind. but i've cried more since i got here than i have in the last four year. it's such a relief

love ya

see you soon

Hear (Their Battle Cries)

this is the moment

this is the rising sun

you are the only one

this is the mountain

that you've been coming down

off of the higher ground

don't say that it's over and gone and that no one will hear

cuz it's all bad enough that you're here and you don't know your fears

and i can't see your eyes anymore

it's not that i don't try anymore

and i don't believe my eyes

but i can't live in this lie

When it hits midnight

then it's your hardest time

you're not alone tonight

this is the crisis

here, people live and die

come hear their battle cries!

i know it's not over and gone, i know someone will hear

i know it's not easy to fake it with everyone here

but i can't see your eyes anymore

it's not that i don't try anymore

and i don't believe my eyes

and i can't live in this lie

believe me, i'm tellin you

this crisis is hardly through

i know that it's been on your mind

i heard you slept last night and all today

but the sleep won't make this go away

i know cuz i was there last year

and i can't see your eyes anymore

it's not that i don't try anymore

i don't believe my eyes

i can't live in this lie

i know that you're not fine anymore

This is the moment.

This is the Rising Sun.

You are the only one.

Flowers to the Sea

"Death will come for all of us but let us fight to live." - Jamie Tworkowski

http://twloha.tumblr.com/post/720164174/flowers-to-the-sea

So today i was having kind of a weird time adjusting/fitting in with the other summer freshman at BYU. i knew i should go be a part of the big events going on, but i really didn't even try the dance. anyways, i came home and read an email from an elder i know (it was to his family and they put it on facebook) from home. he just had a transfer after being a branch president for a newly created branch. Here's what he said, "I can`t believe that I`m not in Chivay anymore, but I`m excited to be here in Ilo and Moquegua because I know that is the Lord`s will! It`s going to be a great change because I already know my companion, Elder Limas, and he`s great! We`re already great friends! And the other missionaries seem great as well! I`m excited to work from them! It`s definitely weird changing my focus from Branch President and members, to Zone Leader and missionaries! But I think I can handle it. haha! I love you all and appreciate your daily prayers! Thank you!"

Now here is what I heard, "I can`t believe that I`m not in [Green Bay] anymore, but I`m excited to be here in [Provo at BYU] because I know that is the Lord`s will! It`s going to be a great change because I already know my [roommate], [Amanda], and [she's] great! We`re already great friends! And the other [roommates] seem great as well! I`m excited to work from them! It`s definitely weird changing my focus from [Laurels] President and members, to [College] and [grades]! But I think I can handle it. haha! I love you all and appreciate your daily prayers! Thank you! "

For you or you friends

For you or your friends. Dude, sometimes you just need to be reminded...

...even if it is by a 33 year old ;)